Welcome to my blog in which I hope I can help my wife to raise awareness of her condition Fibromyalgia and maybe go some way to helping the partners, friends and family of those suffering with the same disease to understand from 'the other side'. I'm also a sufferer of depression and would like to share my thoughts on this and the battle i've had for nearly twenty years.

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Monday, 15 February 2010

I make things worse, I'm so sad

As much as I try to help my wife, I feel completly useless, and a failure. When my wife was well she could do anything, and make things better whatever it was, I cannot live upto that, I do things which I feel are right, but never to the standard she expects. I'm here to help her get better but I'm not, I just make things worse, she gets wound up then shouts at me and I feel like crap, what is the point of me being here, I feel like I'll never get it right ever. Tonight I feel really sad, I could cry, 2 steps forward and 3 steps back, never forward only, I want to smash the house up, but then I'd do it wrong anyway.
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Posted by JOHN DARIN-BRAME at 23:10

1 comment:

  1. Pink-Fizz-Dee16 February 2010 at 22:01

    Ah John that made me cry:(
    You are an amazing husband who has an amazing wife, you have been through so much together and got through it, this is another tester another thing you will pull through together, there is at last a light at the end of the tunnel, i fully believe Sallys cure is just around the corner
    Keep strong xx

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